The Cruelty of LD Relationships =(

You figure that I, of all people, would be used to it by now but the truth is, it's still difficult. I don't mean the relationship itself so much as the loneliness I feel whenever my loved one and I are living our own separate lives in different parts of the country and then observing couples all around me so happy together. It makes me feel like shit sometimes. Seeing them staring into each other's eyes, holding each other in their arms and overall radiating such a huge sense of complete connection with one another makes me wonder when the next time I feel that that way will be. Another two months perhaps? Or sometimes maybe even more. This summer, I could have chosen to stay in Toronto to be close to him but in the end I chose to go away to Hong Kong for almost 3 months. Now, 3 days into my trip I thinking "why the hell did I choose that?!?". For the past 8 months I've been away studying out of town and returned home only twice. With the school year ended, I'm home for a week and now I'm off again. Will the loneliness ever go away?

So where did these feelings come from?? Actually, it was after meeting my brother's gf yesterday for the first time. She's really great and he's very happy. It's nice knowing my little brother is in good hands. =)